Christmas Countdown...6 days..nope 5 days to go..! X'mas Eve

This will be a very busy Christmas countdown...
1) Brother family ready to move in new house..literally next door in 3/4 days for Christmas :-) Lots of stairs climbing...2 storeys each house...trim and flat out for Christmas :-)
2) Panic....busy packing and clearing my clutters...lots of stuffs and massive clear out...some goes to charity, few nostalgia things, etc ...junks that I keep for the past 10 years here :-)
3) Looking forwards to heading off to Tim's parents on 23rd December...for a proper English Christmas do :-) Then, we can relax after all the hustle!
4) Pressies....unwrap but almost done all shopping...so feel bits relax now
5) Help babysitting nephew, Nathan.. he is very cute and staying with us for few months :-)

Finally, wishing everyone "Merry Christmas and Happy 2009 New Year"

HOT 'N' COLD

Kathy Perry's song "HOT N COLD" have been playing in my mind recently. I admit that I like that song for a reason...especially this :

Someone call the doctor.. Got a case of a love bi-polar... Stuck on a roller coaster... Can't get off this ride.. *You* change your mind.. Like a girl changes clothes

*Decision, decision, decision, etc...sometime I hate to choose either moving on or staying put. I need clear mind to eliminate clutters.

Lots of things been bugging me such as worries about my future, career, relationship, health, etc. Please give me strength to make up my mind and I'm tired of procrastinate further. Though, I hope I'm a superwoman but that's unrealistic!

Stop pressing my button!

I know my limit when someone tried to pressure me until I scream "STOP" mentally. I wish I have argumentative and logical reasons to defend myself. I can't please everyone but I wonder why don't people be more considerate to others and leave me in peace. I respect others and I hope I will be treated the same in return. I hope I am not being demanding and always like to maintain diplomacy in any awkward situations. I keep myself to myself and treasure my privacy very much. PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE!

HOPE

Guess what? I am feeling more relax and serene after sharing my doubts in life. Yes, absolutely bestow and hope everything in order soon. I am blessed and grateful for going through this journey calmly.
Thank you for the encouragements and concerns from people who care about me. I have been let down, feeling pretty low and fears for my future undertakings. Its all beyond my control, so why should I pull my hair so harsh... just relax...then, wait and see! I don't blame it on anyone or no finger-pointing or what-so-ever! I hate confrontation, most of the time I lost control and cried.

PROCRASTINATION

I admit that I'm very good at PROCRASTINATION...Bless me!
According to Wikipedia: PROCRASTINATION may result in stress, a sense of guilt, the loss of personal productivity, the creation of crisis and the disapproval of others for not fulfilling one's responsibilities or commitments.
"Chuen-choong"....I strike all the symptoms easier than winning a lottery. That's why I am not loaded with $$$$$ Money, money, money....where are you? Why can't I be someone rich?

Finally, I pluck up my courage to question my other half and myself where are we heading from here?? Right now??? There is no turning point either way...I put my feet down on deciding what are the worst consequences and try not to hurt others too much. My flaw is always putting others' welfare prior to mine....probably, less heart-ache if I'm more selfish.

I am calmer and more insane, I reckoned. I do apologise if I pissed someone off recently..especially my family and friends. Sincere apologies! They are my treasure and everything, without them, I'm nobody. Please give me strength to sustain my inner peace!

Chasing Pavements

Guess what, I always wonder why and WTH I was borned to this world...was that my bad karma in previous life(recarnation) Sial..I believe in such things...who knows...Anyway, feel grumpy today...woke up at the wrong side of bed(I wished)..bad mood or any excuses ...... quotation says:

“An excuse is worse and more terrible than a lie; for an excuse is a lie guarded.” Alexander Pope

See the damages...Alexander Pope only said ONE (An excuse... but me EXCUSES... Pardon me! ..you got it clear and loud) I reckoned I should follow suit with the English Proverb...

'Every cloud has a silver lining' ..meaning..There's always something good in bad times.

I'm facing lots of dilemmas at the moment... should I follow my heart or my head?? Being a practical and rational thinker, the head override my heart..but I'm only a vulnerable human (Woman). I feel very pressure and reflected lots of possibilities...I want to seal my life with a prominent decision. Hopefully, I will survive for the next 5, 10, 20 or N number of years well. Life is too short for those who treasure... Therefore, I will make up my mind and not daydreaming anymore...I am hook to Adele's 19 Chasing Pavements http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=uBmwdlBFs1s

Frustration

Wonder why stress like to inhibit in human system...why can't any genius scientist do something about it....I'm really stress about not being competent in life...very frustrated and just want to give up.
I am a nice and well manner person but sometimes people just treat me badly...don't really understand the "karma" rebirth cycle...I believe in karma recarnation...that's why what I am doing now will effect my next life.

Coughing

I am coughing for almost a month now but not serious compare to 4 years ago when I had the most chronic cough lasted 3 months, which everyone suspected as TB :-(
Coughing is classified as acute (of sudden onset) if it is present less than three weeks, subacute if it is present between three and eight weeks, and chronic when lasting longer than eight weeks. (Quoted from wikipedia)
Been to GP, he inspected me but no prescription given. His reasoning, cough is non medicational illness. We need to boost up our immume system to fight the bad bacteria. I consulted a nurse by chance how to boost up immume system.... recommended to take Echinacea.
An earlier University of Maryland review based on 13 European studies concluded that echinacea, when taken at first sign of a cold, reduced cold symptoms or shortened their duration.[2] The review also found that three of four published studies concluded that taking echinacea to prevent a cold was ineffective.
Echinacea is popularly believed to be an immunostimulator, stimulating the body's non-specific immune system and warding off infections. A common reference source for believers is a 2007 meta-analysis in The Lancet Infectious Diseases[7]; however, this study fails to indicate important confounding factors that could drive the reported conclusion. The studies pooled in the meta-analysis used different types of echinacea, different parts of the plant, and various dosages. This review cannot inform recommendations on the efficacy of any particular type of echinacea, dosage, or treatment regimen. The safety of echinacea under long-term use is also unknown.[8]..(Quoted from Wikipedia)
Sadly, my believe for the wonder of Echinacea for curing my chronic cough varnished.
Finally, I found the treatment for cough from rubbing Vicks VapoRub on neck, chest and both soles, then wear stocking before retiring to bed. The next morning, my windpipe and nasal cleared. Thank you for the little wonder of Vicks VapoRub :-)

Wedding banquet

My life is always full of ups and downs...sounds familiar? I am quite a perfectionist and traditionist in term of cultural. Brought up in a small communities backhome where whole village "almost" know each other is very different from the cosmopolitan societies, where everyone mind their own business.
Frankly speaking, I prefer the western socialisation with a twist of eastern root. Don't get me wrong, I respect different cultures and all walk of lifes but feel more laid back and relax without conforming to norm that I disagreed. Have anyone wonder why cross-cultural life seems colourful to me?
I would suggest we go with the flow and use your judgement when dealing with different cultural occasions. Meal sharing is practically all serve at once in Chinese culture but Western serving by courses take 2-3 hours enjoying the dining atmosphere. Once I was attending a Chinese wedding banquet where meals served by courses but right to the last dishes (normally lotus wrapped fried rice or desserts), most of the contented guests already left. What is your reaction if you were not familiar with the culture...you may think the guests are making their move because they dislike the banquet or in hurry to get home?