HOPE

Guess what? I am feeling more relax and serene after sharing my doubts in life. Yes, absolutely bestow and hope everything in order soon. I am blessed and grateful for going through this journey calmly.
Thank you for the encouragements and concerns from people who care about me. I have been let down, feeling pretty low and fears for my future undertakings. Its all beyond my control, so why should I pull my hair so harsh... just relax...then, wait and see! I don't blame it on anyone or no finger-pointing or what-so-ever! I hate confrontation, most of the time I lost control and cried.

PROCRASTINATION

I admit that I'm very good at PROCRASTINATION...Bless me!
According to Wikipedia: PROCRASTINATION may result in stress, a sense of guilt, the loss of personal productivity, the creation of crisis and the disapproval of others for not fulfilling one's responsibilities or commitments.
"Chuen-choong"....I strike all the symptoms easier than winning a lottery. That's why I am not loaded with $$$$$ Money, money, money....where are you? Why can't I be someone rich?

Finally, I pluck up my courage to question my other half and myself where are we heading from here?? Right now??? There is no turning point either way...I put my feet down on deciding what are the worst consequences and try not to hurt others too much. My flaw is always putting others' welfare prior to mine....probably, less heart-ache if I'm more selfish.

I am calmer and more insane, I reckoned. I do apologise if I pissed someone off recently..especially my family and friends. Sincere apologies! They are my treasure and everything, without them, I'm nobody. Please give me strength to sustain my inner peace!

Chasing Pavements

Guess what, I always wonder why and WTH I was borned to this world...was that my bad karma in previous life(recarnation) Sial..I believe in such things...who knows...Anyway, feel grumpy today...woke up at the wrong side of bed(I wished)..bad mood or any excuses ...... quotation says:

“An excuse is worse and more terrible than a lie; for an excuse is a lie guarded.” Alexander Pope

See the damages...Alexander Pope only said ONE (An excuse... but me EXCUSES... Pardon me! ..you got it clear and loud) I reckoned I should follow suit with the English Proverb...

'Every cloud has a silver lining' ..meaning..There's always something good in bad times.

I'm facing lots of dilemmas at the moment... should I follow my heart or my head?? Being a practical and rational thinker, the head override my heart..but I'm only a vulnerable human (Woman). I feel very pressure and reflected lots of possibilities...I want to seal my life with a prominent decision. Hopefully, I will survive for the next 5, 10, 20 or N number of years well. Life is too short for those who treasure... Therefore, I will make up my mind and not daydreaming anymore...I am hook to Adele's 19 Chasing Pavements http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=uBmwdlBFs1s

Frustration

Wonder why stress like to inhibit in human system...why can't any genius scientist do something about it....I'm really stress about not being competent in life...very frustrated and just want to give up.
I am a nice and well manner person but sometimes people just treat me badly...don't really understand the "karma" rebirth cycle...I believe in karma recarnation...that's why what I am doing now will effect my next life.